I am Your Angel
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I am a tender breath away always loving you.... were the words I heard in my heart a few days after my 18 year old nephew Omar, suddenly passed away five years ago from undiagnosed hydrocephalus (water in the brain). The words flowed and danced and shaped as if on its own into a poem "I am Your Angel", which I believe was Omar's spirit delivering a message to the one he loved the most, his Mother. This poem was read at the funeral mass where hundreds of his friends, some online friends, whom he had not met physically, traveled to New York to pay their respects.
The death of a child or young one changes one forever. It gave me a different perspective on what life is about, which is love and of the very temporary, sacred nature of life; we are on planet earth as guests passing through. Love is what has the power to continue affecting those that are left behind when the portal of death opens and takes us into the world beyond. We will be remembered for the moments of kindness, compassion, a reaching out, even tough love, anything that we did to create a ripple in another's life is what will survive our death.
When my time comes, I hope my epitaph reads something like this: "She kept an open heart and did her best in living, loving and leaving the world a better place for those who crossed her path and for strangers."
"I am Your Angel
Now that I'm in the other world
where souls find a resting place
among the rainbow colored waterfalls -
I will be your guardian angel
your sweet angel watching over you.
I will dry your tears
and hold you in a tight embrace
and your heart will remember
I am only a tender breath away.
You can call me when your heart is breaking
you can call me when you want to feel my love
you can call me and I will be by your side
even if I am now dancing in the Light with God.
I may seem to be gone but
I am still with you
while we fulfill God's Higher Plan.
I am a tender breath way
always loving you...
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VioletSun , this is beautiful and it's also close to my heart . We , in the hubs , have stumbled upon something beautiful. A connection ! That connection is with all things alive and in spirit. Big hug to you my dear. Thank you for all you're sharing.
Michelle, Yes life and death are indeed humbling teachers! Hugs back at you my friend.
Ahorseback: You inspired me to share this poem after reading your last hub on your brother, such is the power of connection! Hugs to you.
" We will be remembered for the moments of kindness, compassion, a reaching out, even tough love, anything that we did to create a ripple in another's life is what will survive our death." Very well said Marie! Thats exactly what I believe in and thats what things are meant to be.
You made me believe, once again, that we all are connected. We pick up thoughts of others and end up believing that they are our thoughts. For last so many days I've been thinking of writing something on the same lines and here I am reading my thoughts in your hub. I had no idea why I was feeling so strongly about this subject but now I know. (Hugs)
Death of a young one in the family changes you for ever. This life shattering feeling can be understood only by the ones who have faced it. Its strange that we keep saying to others and to ourselves also that we have to move on but the question is...."Do we ever actually move on?" I don't think we do. :((
What a beautiful poem Marie! I Love th epitaph you have chosen for yourself, which is of most certain true as you create for you adn this is obvious the intention you have each and every moment. And indeed this is what you have done as you shared this hub...
Indeed the loss of youth, children or even a young dieing at birth as I experienced... it either opens or closes doors for those left behind. But as we listen to the whispers from the places we cannot yet see, the places where they even now reside, we can hear teh door opening... Thanks, Sue
Anjali, Isn't it amazing, how, we think thoughts are ours but we are tuning in? Phil and I are aware of this, so when we sometimes have the negative feelings for no reason at all, we suspect, at times we are picking it up from the collective consciousness especially if one is a sensitive, this works for the higher thoughts too. You are right on that one never really moves on, we simply surrender to what we cannot change and live life with a respect for it, at least its this way for me. Hugs~
Susan, I remember about your baby, and this experience has contributed to who you are, a compassionate soul. Thank you for your kind words and validation.
Marie-It appears the muse has returned. This is such a lovely message and beautiful poem. I sent it off to my Facebook page. I visited your website the other day. It is beautiful. I was very impressed with all that you offer on it. Thank you for sharing this tender piece of you.
Oh Marie - this is so touching and yet so uplifting! Strange how when we open our minds, the words we want to hear are communicated to us from those we love.
And there can be no better epitaph than that! Beautiful!
Denise, h, thank you for sharing in Facebook and always being supportive, its very much appreciated. :)
Shalini, You picked up the energy of my intention which was not to depress even if loss is painful, but to uplift; the power of the spirit always gives one strength.
This just has to be one of the best hubs I have read since I joined HubPages and I have read hundreds if not thousands. Captivating from beginning to end. The use of language not only poetic, but masterfully arranged. I envy you for this, but in the nicest possible way :-)
DG, Your words mean a lot to me, so thank you for this, as I have been struggling with a lack of inspiration for the past couple of months, but the muse is lurking now. :)
I think that I have found the secret to lack of inspiration: Randomly choose wonderful words that you like. Throw them into an imaginary pool and let them mix themselves up. Now jump in and swim amongst them. The subject will present itself :-)))
And why are you awake at 2 am your time???? :-))
Sorry about your nephew, but I know you keep his memory alive with your writing. Also, your writings help many other people experiencing the grief of losing a love one. You have always been one of the more positive people I met here on Hubpages.
Such beautiful words at a very painful time. I'm so sorry about the loss of your nephew.
You are really my angel. Thanks for writing this. You made my day so beautiful after reading this hub. You are my guidance and you fill my heart with joy. Angel is always protecting us from bad things. And I believe you'll do this. This is so sweet. My love and my pray always for you. Thumbs up for you and I give you double with my vote. Cheers.....
Blessing and hugs, Prasetio
DG, Hmmmmm... thanks for the tips, I can see myself doing this!
Sweetiepie, I just finished sending a quick email to my sister with the link to this hub, and I told her that I am keeping Omar's memory alive through my writing, and here you are confirming it. :) I hope, that whatever I write or share is helpful to those who need it.
Steph, thank you and good to see you!
Prasetio,Oh, so nice to read your words. Many thanks for the double vote, love and hugs to you as well.
This was truly lovely piece.
Thank you Joshua, appreciate your comments.
It is sad and beautiful at the same time.
Thanks for stopping by and adding your comments, Ingenira.
Really sad! Rest in peace to Omar. Beautiful poem
Gives me goosebumps - literally, VioletSun. It is so poignant and so beautiful. sniff, sniff. . . I'm voting it up, awesome and beautiful.
I'm sorry to hear about your nephew! Your poem is lovely!
Thank-you so much ViloetSun for this heart-moving hub.
I am sure that by losing such a loved one,the "open heart" is one possible response,certainly in your case.And then some may close the heart as a reaction.
And i too think that life and death are teachers of a kind.And there is always the heart-break of life,whether we lose a loved one,or when we lose such a person.Such is the humanly born condition.
On this note,you may be interested to see a book by my spiritual teacher called Easy Death.There are many essays in it. And heart-moving stories towards the back of people's experiences.The site is www.easydeathbook.com
All the very best.
And may we all continue to live with an open heart.
I would like to leave you with the "Universal world Prayer" by my teacher, Adi Da.Maybe it too will resonate with you.
"Beloved,inmost heart of every heart,do not let our human hearts be broken,by our merely mortal suffering here,but make our mortal human hearts break free, to an unconditional love of you,that we may,thus, love all living beings, with love's own true, and truely broken Heart".
Love,
Gavin
Thanks Tnvrstar, Nellieanna, Justmesusane and Gavin for reading and adding your comments,its always appreciated.
And Gavin, I will be checking out the book you suggested as I love these topics, as life is about everything: living, the in between and our final journey. The Universal prayer is one I will be sharing in my writings. Thanks for thes share!
Love to you all!
What a beautiful thought you have portrayed in this poem.loved it.
Ed77, Thank you for reading and taking the time to add your comments, its appreciated.
Dear Mary, your & Omar`s poem is very beautiful, your words wise and beautiful, but several days ago when I first time read this Hub, I became so sad that I could not write the comment (I think it was reaction on epitaph, LOL...). I tried to leave comment again, 2 days ago, but I also started to cry...so could not write anything.
I hope you are well -
Love and hugs
Hi Tatjana, aaaaw, perhaps you connected to the impermanance of physical life and it brought out the sadness. I don't plan to go yet to the other world beyond, hopefully not. Hope the epitaph is for when I am 120 years old, LOL! Love and hugs to you~
This so touched my heart - simply beautiful.
Acaetnna, Thank you for your kind comments. :)
VioletSun. ahorseback couldn't have said it better. We are all connected in some form or another. Your nephew left this world for another for a reason. He crossed through the thin vale into the other dimension. He awaits, so don't worry, you will see him again, for now his spirit will always be close to you in wonders only you will understand and delight in.
A wonderful brilliant poem, I had tears running down my cheeks as I read this tribute, know that he is fine, he simply has left the physical body behind and awaits in the spiritual realm. Hugs..
So good to have you back, Saddelrider! Your words mean a lot to me, I truly appreciated them, want to think that my loved ones just went on a vacation until one day I join them. Read Ahorseback's comments again, and he is so right, the connection is to things alive in the physical world and to spirit, its humbling if one comes to think of it. Hugs to you~
What a lovely heartfelt poem. You have a beautiful soul, and I am sure you bring your sister comfort.
This hub is a very touching way to start a meaningful new year for me. I love this line, "...It gave me a different perspective on what life is about, which is love and of the very temporary, sacred nature of life; we are on planet earth as guests passing through..." and "...When my time comes, I hope my epitaph reads something like this: "She kept an open heart and did her best in living, loving and leaving the world a better place for those who crossed her path and for strangers." Hey, you make my life beautiful with your warmth and friendship! Thanks for sharing another superb hub! I will always be your fan. =)
Truckstop Sally, Oh, thank you, your words are appreciated.
DjBryle, I am very glad we have crossed paths in Hubland, and I was touched by your comments, and that you will always be my fan. Aaawww. :)
Thanks Sally and DJB for your warmth and comments!
Wonderful, wonderful poem. This hub touched my heart! Thank you VioletSun, Be Blessed! Come and visit me when you have time. Voted-up!
Dr.Carlotta, Thank you for your visit, blessings and vote!
Violet Sun, Beautiful Expression of the Eternalness of Love! No doubt your life has been touched by an Angel... Thank you for sharing, Peace & Blessings!
Deborrah, Your words touched me, thank you! Peace and blessings to you as well.
Thanks for the most beautiful hub. How wonderful you were open to the spirit to listen and put down this poem for his mom. God Bless you and Bless your lovely nephew Omar. The picture of him shows how full of the light of God he was.
Healing Touch, Your kind comments made my eyes wet, thank you, its very mcuh appreciated.
The photo of your nephew is darling. I am simply elated to read this beautiful tribute to your nephew and for your sister's sake.I read it as if my husband was reading to me himself from the other side. Bless you
Fossillady, Your comments made my eyes wet, I am deeply honored that my poem's message helped another human being who also has experienced loss. Your husband is your angel, always watching over you. Thanks for the follow! :)
VioletSun. Hi. Oh this is beautiful and sad and such a fitting tribute to your nephew Omah. He is smiling down and looking out for his mum and your family, there is nothing surer.
The poem is wonderful and to have him as your angel is so very special.
Thank you for sharing this very beautiful hub with us.:) :)
Oliversmum, Oh, thank you. He used to smile a lot, always happy, so I can see him smiling at him Mom and at the family. :) Always good to see you.
very sweet and inspiring.
an angel looks down from God's Holy City,
remembering connections made previously.
Upon this angels presence, you may undoubtedly call,
when help is needed, winter, spring, summer, or fall.
I enjoyed it, and will be back to read more of your great writing. thanks :]
Ben,Love your poetic comments, beautiful! Thank you for you kind comments. Nice meeting you! :)
Mercy me!! Sometimes I'm at a loss for words when I read some of these hubs. Like now.. VioletSun. Thank you.
Susan, What a surprise!!! Haven't seen you in hubpages in a while. For someone who is as eloquent as you, I am happy I left you at loss for words. :) Good to see you!
What a heart feeling hub you actually shared in here with us.I so much enjoyed reading these great article of yours a lot.
Thank you for your kind comments, Sun-Girl, much appreciated!
Violet, this hub caught my eye because I LOVE rainbows. It touched my heart and gave me goosebumps all over. I lost four people in my family within 8 months' time in 2008, one of which was my precious Mom. My stepmom died 3 months after that. My baby brother hung himself 7 months after my Mom died and my cousing hung HIMSELF just 7 weeks after my brother did! I wish to be "dancing in the light" with all of them someday. I miss them greatly. Thank you for sharing such a beautiful tribute.
Lene, reading your comments made my eyes wet. It's a lot of pain to lose loved ones, all at the same time, and especially through suicide. I truly believe, or rather know that they are alive and well, as I have heard my Mother who passed away in 2000. Hugs to you and thanks for reading and adding your comments!
I believe the same thing. I have heard my Mom talk to me MANY times since she died. I have even seen her and my brother many times as well. Thank you for your compassion towards all my losses. It was a lot of pain, for sure. I spelled "cousin" wrong, too, I see...oooopppsss!!! Take good care for now..:)
Lene, I didn't notice you mispelled cousin as I was involved in reading your experience. :) I see you also are open to spirit communication, which is great!
Love to you VioletSUn, thanks fr sharing that experience. It is interesting how I met you on Hubpages. I have been studying and practicing open faith, love, peace through many media (yoga, meditation, prayer, etc...) and I always read one of you r message when I need to remember the most or to confirm something I just thought, did or said.
Love to Omar, his mom, his friends and family...may this experience remind us all what is important:LOVE.
Losing someone we love reminds us of being love and peace the more, so we can leave a ray of light behind us that warms up those who are cold, that shows the way to those who are lost and creates happiness.
Love and peace
NiaLee
Nia,
Thanks for reading my hubs for inspiration, it's a wonderful validation. :) I also will be catching up with yours for inspiration as well. Thanks for sharing your Light.
Namaste,
Marie
Thank you so much Marie for writing this most comforting piece for all who have lost loved ones. The constant presence by my side of my late husband, the feel that he is watching and protecting me is overwhelming and now – for the first time – I really believe there is an undeniable connection between the ones who departed and the rest of us.
I am so glad you are keeping your nephew’s memory alive and sheared with us this beautiful poem – thank you my dear!
Petra, we have felt Omar's presence a few times, even has answered with signs. He connects more to his Mom which is understandable. Your husband is with you, I truly believe this! I have written more hubs on after death visitations that may be of help. Thanks for reading and commenting, my friend.
My dear Marie,
I read your website page by page and line by line; what a wonderful thing you have done my precious friend.
I heard the mention of a Higher Self for the first time from an Indian doctor who was treating my husband; after 33 days in a deep coma, when Stan finally awake, his first words just softly whispered were “no more”. After his heard attack, because of a prolonged lack of oxygen, most of his organs have failed and his condition was extremely grave. Because of the aggressive measures that doctors took he regained conciseness, but his Higher Self knew better. Most of the time that followed, when he was awake Stan talked about dead people we both knew.
Now that I read Jung’s experience as well as your comforting thought about the eternal existence and the Light, I know what my dear husband went through and I do know his spirit is alive. It all make sense and I don’t know how to thank you enough.
Petra, Your comments gave me goose bumps and made my eyes wet. All of us in the human journey share birth, life and death. Your Stan knew it was time to go, and don't be surprised if besides feeling his presence, he makes himself known to you in ways that cannot be denied. My nephew's passing shifted my life - in how I perceive life. I am fully concious we are all here for a limited time and that life is sacred. Most people live as if they were going to be here forever in the physical life and get into the drama of the world. We do live forever but in spirit. One does not need to be religious(which I am not) to seeing the absolute wonder and mystery of life.
Thank you for your kind comments on the website and so happy you found it helpful. Always feel free to contact me or share your thoughts.
Hugs,
Marie
Yes to angels, healing, Light, faith, balance, and joy. So how are you doing my friend? Sending you beacons of rainbow-colored Light....Gary. Oh, great Hub of course! (smile)
Hi Gary, I am doing good, thanks! Have been very busy, about to publish my book "Beyond Inspirations" which is a compilation of affirmative prayers and short spiritual musings.
Thanks for the rainbow-colored Light. :) Saw in one of your hubs that you are working now? I am very happy for you, that you are back in your profession.
thank you for sharing Violet , , ,I appreciate the care taken expressing sincerity.
Thank you Tsmog for commenting. :)
..and 11 months you are still his poetic angel in waiting - and his memory, like your writing, will stand the test of time ..... lake erie time ontario canada 8:30am
Oh, thank you for your kind words. :)
Very sorry to hear about your nephew there Marie. As time passes, we think we understand more and more about the big picture and what life is all about. Then something like that happens and we're right back to square one again.
I helped raise a 14 year old boy in Florida. One day while playing video games at a friends house, Some drunken, idiot kid emptied a pistol into the front of the houee. One of the rounds just happened to catch James in the head and killed him...
At my age one would think I'd know why things like that happen as with James and your nephew. Fact is, I know nothing except perhaps what's left behind and in your case, I see a really great, loving and intelligent women that anyone would be proud to call Aunt Marie.
Craig, Some things in life I have found cannot be understood by the mind, such as the death of a young one, but sometimes we see the "results", such as a surviving family member becoming kinder or a family opening a foundation to help others. So sorry to hear of James, yikes, what a trauma for the family! Thank you for your kind words, it's appreciated. :)
Marie, thank you for sharing such a moving and heartfelt story - I had chills while reading the poem and could feel so much love and wisdom coming through the words. I'm sorry your family experience such a tragedy and I commend you for letting this transform you into an even more loving and compassionate person.
Melissa! What a surprise, so good to see you back in Hubpages! Thanks for reading and leaving your comments. Omar's passing definitely made me more aware of life's temporary nature and how we should appreciate the gift of life.
Hope all is well on your end. :)
Thanks Marie! It's nice to be back and I agree - life is a beautiful gift. :) All is well in my world - lots of great changes recently.. I plan to write an update Hub, just need to figure out how to package it. :)
Good to hear you are well! :)
Marie, that was absolutely incredible. Our loved ones are always with us. Thank you for sharing this powerful piece with us.
I voted this Up and Beautiful.
Blessings,
Terry
Thanks Terry! We miss the physical connection but the spirit always lives and this gives me consolation.
Hey Lady...
I just got your book. Very very nice. I didn't get a chance to read much of it, Angela scarfed it up right away.LOL
She reads everyday. I'll let you know what she thinks...
Hey Craig, I just logged on to Hubpages and found your comment! Thanks for the purchase and comments. Would appreciate it mucho if Angela gave me a review in Amazon. Doesn't have to be lengthy, just a few words is good. Reviews are important for all authors and when you publish your next book you need to get them. They are hard to get, unless one is well known. Jill (Baking Bread left one for me) :)
I am going to be marketing the book to the spiritual community, have been slow in doing this as I haven't finished my website connected to the book.
Will Doo Marie. Baking bread, that's Jill Kroll right. Gees now i'm 70 I got women all over the place. I got a few bones to pick with your "creator" if I ever get there.
The review will be no problem for Angela. She's an anyalist for Com-Cast cable co, bi-lingual, with a degree in mechanical engineering.
If you ever want to switch your web host and get the very best web building program on the planet, Let me know. I'll fix you up with VodaHost. A three year old could build a great website.
Thanks! Wow, mechanical engineering? She has to be very bright. My s/o is an electrical engineer but left his profession about 9 years ago to pursue other interests. Thanks for the offer to help. We all age, haha, not exactly fun as we still feel as if we were 20 on the inside but with more wisdom. At least I do! :)
ripplemaker Level 6 Commenter 16 months ago
What a heartwarming hub with a wonderful poem Marie. :) I loved the vision of your nephew watching over you and his mom. Love is eternal and death teaches us that love crosses everything and beyond. What an awesome lesson for us! What an awakening! Thumbs up for this inspirational hub! Hugs...